Last night I took my girls to dinner (Mexican). There was a sun on the wall, which was painted in a somber face and looked like it may have been crying. Mackenzie, you were fixated on this sun. You didn't want to look at it but you couldn't take your eyes off it. You kept focused on the fact that the sun was sad "sun sad mommy" "me no like". Then you said to me 1/2 as a statement and 1/2 as a question "his mommy coming?...his daddy coming?". I didn't know how to respond. You had such compassion for this thing and were so concerned but at the same time you were hopeful that his mom & dad would come.
I am not sure what I should take from that...should I imply you are sad when you aren't with mommy & daddy or should I take that mommy & daddy can heal all wounds. I will believe the later, because I think it is best for both of us.
I tried to assure you that he was not sad, that it looked that way but he wasn't sad. You didn't seem to buy it and even asked about him again before bed time. Guess I have a very emotion girl on our hands.
XOXO
Mom
P.S. Yesterday you also held out your hand (in an adult like shung but with your hands cupped as if you were holding water in them) and said "I gotta go get a haircut, ok? Then I get a treat, ok?" Looks like snip-its has a customer for life!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Houston We Have Progress - Cameron
Last night you sat up on her own for the first time. Granted you was a bit hunched over but still it was so adorable and you looked so proud of herself.
Yesterday you also...found your feet.
Babies do things at such different times, and adults never know why. Seems to us you are just content to enjoy the scenery, especially your sister. Finding your feet was something Mackenzie did quickly but why would you be looking to play with your feet when you are continually being asked to hold legos and roll the giggle ball with your sister.
Guess the rolls won't be far now...
Yesterday you also...found your feet.
Babies do things at such different times, and adults never know why. Seems to us you are just content to enjoy the scenery, especially your sister. Finding your feet was something Mackenzie did quickly but why would you be looking to play with your feet when you are continually being asked to hold legos and roll the giggle ball with your sister.
Guess the rolls won't be far now...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Mac - Mom, Play Legos?
I escaped work in Boston early yesterday and came to the front door to surprise everyone. Cameron was playing in her seat, you answered the door with Daddy. You yelled - Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
Then, a second later you said "Mom, you play legos?" We played legos and match game and read books for the next 90 minutes. We tickeled Cameron and had her hold toys and watched as she almost rolled over many many many times and you asked if you could help her (we said she didn't need help that she would roll when it was time). You even put your mouth on her belly and made that noise that we make (I don't know what it was called).
Not sure what it was about that 90 minutes. Maybe the fact that it was unexpected or uninterupted or that everyone was in such a good mood or that I wasn't trying to get anything else done (as my intetion of leaving work early was to see Daddy and my girls) but it was the best 90 minutes I have had in a long time!
Then, a second later you said "Mom, you play legos?" We played legos and match game and read books for the next 90 minutes. We tickeled Cameron and had her hold toys and watched as she almost rolled over many many many times and you asked if you could help her (we said she didn't need help that she would roll when it was time). You even put your mouth on her belly and made that noise that we make (I don't know what it was called).
Not sure what it was about that 90 minutes. Maybe the fact that it was unexpected or uninterupted or that everyone was in such a good mood or that I wasn't trying to get anything else done (as my intetion of leaving work early was to see Daddy and my girls) but it was the best 90 minutes I have had in a long time!
Monday, March 24, 2008
Talk Radio - Mac
You enjoy the radio and listening to CDs in the house and in the car. Sometimes when I am playing my top 40 hits you say "I don't like that"..."Old MacDonald" but this morning you Dad was controlling the radio and therefore it was on talk radio. You came into our room and looked around. It didn't seem strange at the time but you were scowering the room more than usual. Then came up to me and said "Mommy, who talking". It was really cute.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Cameron - Our little sunshine
Today was Easter and Mackenzie's 2nd birthday. We had a wonderful day (weekend really) with the family and with our girls.
Cam, you are a wonderful baby with a great disposition! You are easy to travel with, easy to hold, easy to snuggle, easy to love, just all around easy going. This is a great thing as your sister is quite a character and always looking to be the center of attention. It seems the only person she doesn't mind sharing the lime-light with is you and we couldn't be happier about that!
You are such a content baby. You love being held or just lying down on the mat. Today especially with all the excitment of the day you just chilled out - we only heard you upset when you needed a diaper change or a bottle. You smile the largest when Mackenzie is around and I try not to worry that she will be too rough with you - she loves "tickeling you" and kissing you and giving you the binkie and covering you with blankets - she really tries her best to be your second mommy.
Right now you are still learning to explore. You are drinking 6 ounce bottles every 3 hours. You were sick last week and it definately decreased the amount you were drinking and eating so we are hoping that will increase to 8 ounces soon. [only a few more weeks until we start you on foods - we are going to start on April 11th as a mini celebration of your 6 month birthday] You pull objects toward you and enjoy anything above your head including your swing, mobile, bouncer seat. You really like the bouncer seat with the fish and the bubbles - I remember Mac liking it also - you will just giggle at it which is very cute.
You are starting to cross your fingers and get your hands to touch each other and you will move objects from one hand to the other but it doesn't seem to be intentional yet. Probably your best "trick" is just your ability to "talk". When someone is eye to eye with you, you love to talk back and forth. You are a behind the scenes kind of girl - you don't make much noise when it is loud or when others are talking - - but at night after Mac has gone to bed you get louder and enjoy the one on one time with Mommy and Daddy.
I love you Cameron. I know the next 6 months will have even more fun times and changes than the first 6 months. You will likely roll over, crawl, stand and maybe even walk within the next 6 months as well as get introduced to all types of food. I feel so lucky to have you in my life. I love you!
Mommy
Cam, you are a wonderful baby with a great disposition! You are easy to travel with, easy to hold, easy to snuggle, easy to love, just all around easy going. This is a great thing as your sister is quite a character and always looking to be the center of attention. It seems the only person she doesn't mind sharing the lime-light with is you and we couldn't be happier about that!
You are such a content baby. You love being held or just lying down on the mat. Today especially with all the excitment of the day you just chilled out - we only heard you upset when you needed a diaper change or a bottle. You smile the largest when Mackenzie is around and I try not to worry that she will be too rough with you - she loves "tickeling you" and kissing you and giving you the binkie and covering you with blankets - she really tries her best to be your second mommy.
Right now you are still learning to explore. You are drinking 6 ounce bottles every 3 hours. You were sick last week and it definately decreased the amount you were drinking and eating so we are hoping that will increase to 8 ounces soon. [only a few more weeks until we start you on foods - we are going to start on April 11th as a mini celebration of your 6 month birthday] You pull objects toward you and enjoy anything above your head including your swing, mobile, bouncer seat. You really like the bouncer seat with the fish and the bubbles - I remember Mac liking it also - you will just giggle at it which is very cute.
You are starting to cross your fingers and get your hands to touch each other and you will move objects from one hand to the other but it doesn't seem to be intentional yet. Probably your best "trick" is just your ability to "talk". When someone is eye to eye with you, you love to talk back and forth. You are a behind the scenes kind of girl - you don't make much noise when it is loud or when others are talking - - but at night after Mac has gone to bed you get louder and enjoy the one on one time with Mommy and Daddy.
I love you Cameron. I know the next 6 months will have even more fun times and changes than the first 6 months. You will likely roll over, crawl, stand and maybe even walk within the next 6 months as well as get introduced to all types of food. I feel so lucky to have you in my life. I love you!
Mommy
Mackenzie - I'll be Two!
Today was Easter Sunday but just as importantly it was Mackenzie's 2nd birthday. It was a great day (other than the fact that I had to take a defensive driver class online!).
It is unbelieveable that two years has flown by but at the same time it is hard for us to remember our lives without you. You are an amazing little girl; very personable, very loving, very smart, you are the apple of everyone's eye. And you have warmed up to your sister and to your cousin so well and so quickly - - it is impressive. Even though it is possible that Cam and Jacob may have a bond due to their closeness in age I think they will follow you around for years to come.
Just recently we were with friends who do not yet have children (and maybe never will). The man said to his wife "if you could promise me one like Mackenzie I would definatey have kids." It was a strange thing to hear but I know it was an extreme compliment. You are captivating, you like attention, like to smile, like to talk and carry on a conversation, like to play and tease and wrestle, you understanding jokes and "know the rules" - even when you don't always follow them.
Right now you are talking up a storm - more than most kids your age. You make full sentences and count to 13 and know your colors. You remember "trained answers" like who is running for president, or where is FL on a map. You understand (slightly) boy vs. girl. You know a lot of letters and remember everyone's name. But your desire to do the dog and pony show varries and I completely understand why and accept it fully. We "test" you partially to show you off but frankly mostly to keep teaching you and to keep you learning and to have you slowly understand that putting on a show is part of life and it can be fun and entertaining for everyone :-)
You are getting better with self play even over the last week or two. You really enjoy "pretending" lately. You grab a bag (purse) put it over your shoulder and say bye-bye. Usually you say you are going to the store. Sometimes you are going to school or Nana's/Papa's. You really like playing in your kitchen set, you love legos and still get good miledge out of your puzzles, the match game and your baby doll.
Your memory is amazing. You do not get easily distracted about promises we make to keep you at bay - which can be a bit difficult.
Other than getting your diaper changed (which you resite about 50% of the time) you really don't resist too much. You easily take baths, take naps (usually), go to bed (after a little struggle a few months back), have your nose wiped (we call them bubbles), get your face washed, etc.
Lately you really want to HELP in the kitchen. I really love it! But it does make the work take a bit longer and clean up a bear. The hardest part is that you really want to be on the step stool to help which is not as safe as I would like but I am trying to be ok with it becuase I know it is part of your growing.
In terms of eating you have gotten a little fussier but you are still pretty good. You like some veggies (brocolli, asparagus) and love starches (pasta, potatoes). You don't love meat but you will always try some...it seems like maybe a texture thing for you. You really enjoy beans and fruit and your absolute favorites are goldfish and ice cream. We try to give those to you on a limited basis...
Your birthday party was yesterday...we had about 30 people at the house to celebrate including: Grandma Bella, Nana, Papa, Grandpa Bill, Grandma Jane, Aunt Tracy, Aunt Katy, Uncle Scott, Aunt Michelle, Uncle Ernie, Aunt Suzanne, Zach, Hayley, Celeste, Paul, Lydia, Jessica, Mike, Jack, Liam, Sue, Joel, Ryan, Zachary, The Irwins (our neighbors) Don, Kelley, Kyle, Sienna, Rana (mommy's cousin) Rhia, Kree, Tess, Andrea (mommy's cousin), Kenny, Jonathon, Joshua. It was an Elmo theme and we (Tracy, Nana and I) spent a while making the cake and preparing for the day! You enjoyed the cake, blew out your candles like a champ and did pretty well in terms of opening gifts and not having any melt-downs!
Today for Easter you decorated eggs for the first time and although you were not interested in taking pictures with anyone you looked adorable in your dress which was coordianted with Cameron. You did well in church walking between Grandma Bella and Nana but liked the singing and wanted to clap after each song (which was very cute).
Happy Easter to my little potato (my new nickname for you - peanut, peanut butter were some other recent ones).
XOXOX
Mommy Teri Weber
It is unbelieveable that two years has flown by but at the same time it is hard for us to remember our lives without you. You are an amazing little girl; very personable, very loving, very smart, you are the apple of everyone's eye. And you have warmed up to your sister and to your cousin so well and so quickly - - it is impressive. Even though it is possible that Cam and Jacob may have a bond due to their closeness in age I think they will follow you around for years to come.
Just recently we were with friends who do not yet have children (and maybe never will). The man said to his wife "if you could promise me one like Mackenzie I would definatey have kids." It was a strange thing to hear but I know it was an extreme compliment. You are captivating, you like attention, like to smile, like to talk and carry on a conversation, like to play and tease and wrestle, you understanding jokes and "know the rules" - even when you don't always follow them.
Right now you are talking up a storm - more than most kids your age. You make full sentences and count to 13 and know your colors. You remember "trained answers" like who is running for president, or where is FL on a map. You understand (slightly) boy vs. girl. You know a lot of letters and remember everyone's name. But your desire to do the dog and pony show varries and I completely understand why and accept it fully. We "test" you partially to show you off but frankly mostly to keep teaching you and to keep you learning and to have you slowly understand that putting on a show is part of life and it can be fun and entertaining for everyone :-)
You are getting better with self play even over the last week or two. You really enjoy "pretending" lately. You grab a bag (purse) put it over your shoulder and say bye-bye. Usually you say you are going to the store. Sometimes you are going to school or Nana's/Papa's. You really like playing in your kitchen set, you love legos and still get good miledge out of your puzzles, the match game and your baby doll.
Your memory is amazing. You do not get easily distracted about promises we make to keep you at bay - which can be a bit difficult.
Other than getting your diaper changed (which you resite about 50% of the time) you really don't resist too much. You easily take baths, take naps (usually), go to bed (after a little struggle a few months back), have your nose wiped (we call them bubbles), get your face washed, etc.
Lately you really want to HELP in the kitchen. I really love it! But it does make the work take a bit longer and clean up a bear. The hardest part is that you really want to be on the step stool to help which is not as safe as I would like but I am trying to be ok with it becuase I know it is part of your growing.
In terms of eating you have gotten a little fussier but you are still pretty good. You like some veggies (brocolli, asparagus) and love starches (pasta, potatoes). You don't love meat but you will always try some...it seems like maybe a texture thing for you. You really enjoy beans and fruit and your absolute favorites are goldfish and ice cream. We try to give those to you on a limited basis...
Your birthday party was yesterday...we had about 30 people at the house to celebrate including: Grandma Bella, Nana, Papa, Grandpa Bill, Grandma Jane, Aunt Tracy, Aunt Katy, Uncle Scott, Aunt Michelle, Uncle Ernie, Aunt Suzanne, Zach, Hayley, Celeste, Paul, Lydia, Jessica, Mike, Jack, Liam, Sue, Joel, Ryan, Zachary, The Irwins (our neighbors) Don, Kelley, Kyle, Sienna, Rana (mommy's cousin) Rhia, Kree, Tess, Andrea (mommy's cousin), Kenny, Jonathon, Joshua. It was an Elmo theme and we (Tracy, Nana and I) spent a while making the cake and preparing for the day! You enjoyed the cake, blew out your candles like a champ and did pretty well in terms of opening gifts and not having any melt-downs!
Today for Easter you decorated eggs for the first time and although you were not interested in taking pictures with anyone you looked adorable in your dress which was coordianted with Cameron. You did well in church walking between Grandma Bella and Nana but liked the singing and wanted to clap after each song (which was very cute).
Happy Easter to my little potato (my new nickname for you - peanut, peanut butter were some other recent ones).
XOXOX
Mommy Teri Weber
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Like Mother Like Daughter
Nana & Papa tell me that when I was a little girl I used to wait at the top of the stairs for Papa to come home. He would come in and walk toward me for a kiss and hug hello but when he was just about to reach out I would run away laughing and screaming.
Last night after being away from the house for about 36 hours during which an unexpected overnight in Boston occured (without change on clothes) as well as a traffic back-up which caused it to take over 6 hours for me to get into the city you greeted me with a delighted "Mommy!" When I was about a foot away, on my knees waiting for my hugs you vanished down the hall with a smile and a laugh.
It was a bit difficult but I am glad you are independent and fun loving!
Last night after being away from the house for about 36 hours during which an unexpected overnight in Boston occured (without change on clothes) as well as a traffic back-up which caused it to take over 6 hours for me to get into the city you greeted me with a delighted "Mommy!" When I was about a foot away, on my knees waiting for my hugs you vanished down the hall with a smile and a laugh.
It was a bit difficult but I am glad you are independent and fun loving!
Monday, March 17, 2008
Things Mac is teaching Cameron
How to hold toys
How legos work "You put it on top here Cam"
Her name "Camilicious"
Letters (when we play with our fridge magnets)
To cover her mouth when she coughs
To clap her hands
Tickle torture
How legos work "You put it on top here Cam"
Her name "Camilicious"
Letters (when we play with our fridge magnets)
To cover her mouth when she coughs
To clap her hands
Tickle torture
Some things Mac knows
Where planet earth is on the map.
Where CA (Maddy, Molly & Mason), FL (Grandma Bella), CT (us), and MA (my work) are on the map.
All your primary colors.
The basic shapes.
Songs - tons of songs like wheels on the bus, abc, spider, jingle bells, old macdonald...
Every child and parent (CC's mommy) at day care.
Where CA (Maddy, Molly & Mason), FL (Grandma Bella), CT (us), and MA (my work) are on the map.
All your primary colors.
The basic shapes.
Songs - tons of songs like wheels on the bus, abc, spider, jingle bells, old macdonald...
Every child and parent (CC's mommy) at day care.
Is my daughter smarter than me
The things I do as a parent, as your mom are things I would have sworn I would never do [although side note there are a few things I said I would never do and I actually do not do like stick my finger in your diaper - - to the folks that do that - - is changing a diaper really that difficult that you are willing to risk it :-)] like smell your bum [although not typically in public] to determine if a diaper change is really warranted.
Tonight I smelled you coming from a mile away and said Mackenzie did you poop as we are trying to re-inforce the concept of the potty and using the potty although you aren't really ready to be trained. "No" was your response and when I said I smelled something you said "Cameron pooped". I thought to myself the blame game as already started.
We headed upstairs and when I changed you I realized you hadn't pooped, it was Cameron!
URG
Tonight I smelled you coming from a mile away and said Mackenzie did you poop as we are trying to re-inforce the concept of the potty and using the potty although you aren't really ready to be trained. "No" was your response and when I said I smelled something you said "Cameron pooped". I thought to myself the blame game as already started.
We headed upstairs and when I changed you I realized you hadn't pooped, it was Cameron!
URG
Friday, March 14, 2008
Big Truck
In October (mac was about 18 months old) we tried a death defying act of meeting my father on the road with his "big truck". It was a bit of a scary experience. Me a few days post C-section. My sister driving my car with Mac and Cam in the back.
So let's paint the picture...My father on the side of 84 in his 18 wheeler. Us in my mini Honda Accord. Calling each other so we can cross paths on the highway and have Mackenzie see Papa in his big truck! Needless to say I didn't really think Mackenzie GOT IT as she kinda waved but clearly could not see my father - even as I stratteld between the front and back seat to show her my father in the truck. She waved but I am not sure she really got it.
A couple days later we were in a parking lot. In pulls a Dunkin Donut truck and she looks at me with excitment and says "Papa!" as if to imply every truck was driven by HER PAPA - guess she understood more than I thought.
Now, about 6 months later she has still held on to that memory. Whenever we see a "big truck" she says. "Truck, like Papa's truck" It really is baby steps - - but her brain is just always working.
So let's paint the picture...My father on the side of 84 in his 18 wheeler. Us in my mini Honda Accord. Calling each other so we can cross paths on the highway and have Mackenzie see Papa in his big truck! Needless to say I didn't really think Mackenzie GOT IT as she kinda waved but clearly could not see my father - even as I stratteld between the front and back seat to show her my father in the truck. She waved but I am not sure she really got it.
A couple days later we were in a parking lot. In pulls a Dunkin Donut truck and she looks at me with excitment and says "Papa!" as if to imply every truck was driven by HER PAPA - guess she understood more than I thought.
Now, about 6 months later she has still held on to that memory. Whenever we see a "big truck" she says. "Truck, like Papa's truck" It really is baby steps - - but her brain is just always working.
Can I get a Roll Over...please?
We are all on roll over watch. Not that I can't wait for Cam to be mobil - I can - but because we really want to witness the first (or what we think is the first...or second). I would have sworn that she rolled over in FL but I guess not since it has been a while since then and no more rolls.
Anyway as we watch for a roll, Mackenzie keeps us "guys" on our toes.
Mac now refers to us as guys - all the time. "Hey guys, I want cheerios...k?"
Anyway as we watch for a roll, Mackenzie keeps us "guys" on our toes.
Mac now refers to us as guys - all the time. "Hey guys, I want cheerios...k?"
Monday, March 10, 2008
Mommy's Turn
I took a shower first this morning - it is Monday (mommy's Boston day) - but I was running a bit behind as I usually leave before the kids are awake.
When Bill got in the shower, Mackenzie walked into the bathroom.
"Daddy?"
"Yes"
"It's Mommy's Turn...ok?"
"Mommy already took a shower"
"Huh. Ok. After, then it's Mommy's Turn...ok?"
The way she added ok at the end of her comments as if partially asking a question but really one that didn't need an answer. Clearly she understands sharing - good. Clearly she doesn't understand that I was clean and didn't need another shower - bad.
It was an opportunity to teach her sharing and taking turns, an opportunity to let her know that sometimes you don't need another turn. It was an opportunity to just say ok, give her a kiss, and leave without confrontation. Hell, it was only 6 a.m. so I took the easy way out :-)
When Bill got in the shower, Mackenzie walked into the bathroom.
"Daddy?"
"Yes"
"It's Mommy's Turn...ok?"
"Mommy already took a shower"
"Huh. Ok. After, then it's Mommy's Turn...ok?"
The way she added ok at the end of her comments as if partially asking a question but really one that didn't need an answer. Clearly she understands sharing - good. Clearly she doesn't understand that I was clean and didn't need another shower - bad.
It was an opportunity to teach her sharing and taking turns, an opportunity to let her know that sometimes you don't need another turn. It was an opportunity to just say ok, give her a kiss, and leave without confrontation. Hell, it was only 6 a.m. so I took the easy way out :-)
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Honey etc.
Over the past five months I have come to appreciate what everyone says about the second child. Sure they say it in jest...but it is true that with the second you do not have the same amount of time and attention to devote to every smile and giggle and funny face. But I know first hand that the second child is better for being the second and having an older sister to light the path.
For the second, for Cameron, it isn't that you love them less - in many ways you may be able to "love" them more because you aren't overwhelmed with all the newness but sometimes Cameron who is doing miraculous things like finding her binkie and bringing it to her mouth (likely 50% intentional) and smiling at the sight of another face yet it often takes a back seat since Mackenzie is bursting with creative juices and putting so many thoughts together.
Example 1: This morning Cameron vocalized her frustration when her mobile stopped which is an achievement and a half (and the first time I noticed her doing this). A few minutes later I asked Mackenzie Bill's name. She said "Daddy" and I asked what his other name was (to which she usually replies - Bill) and her response was "Honey". [Yesterday Mackenzie said that Cameron's name was "Camilicous" which we call her often]
Example 2: Cameron finished her first 8 oz bottle today. We had offered her 8 ounces before but she never finished them so it was a bit monumental. At the time Mackenzie was in potty training mode and therefore naked. Just before I fed Cam, Mac asked if she could use the step stool so after the momumental 8 oz bottle I walked over to a very wet Mackenzie. I said to her "Mackenzie did you pee" to which she replied "Guys I don't pee" and she was right the wetness was just from playing in the sink.
Example 3: Prompted by Jacob's use of the jumper we dusted off the baby einstein for Cameron today. She sat in it for the first time and although her feet would hit the floor - they were just a little shy as she doesn't extend them the whole way. We decided it would still be good for her to use but just not to leave her in for long. As Cam was sitting in the exersaucer Mackenzie brought over two rings piled on top of each other to Cameron. And said "Here Cam, Sandwich"
For the second, for Cameron, it isn't that you love them less - in many ways you may be able to "love" them more because you aren't overwhelmed with all the newness but sometimes Cameron who is doing miraculous things like finding her binkie and bringing it to her mouth (likely 50% intentional) and smiling at the sight of another face yet it often takes a back seat since Mackenzie is bursting with creative juices and putting so many thoughts together.
Example 1: This morning Cameron vocalized her frustration when her mobile stopped which is an achievement and a half (and the first time I noticed her doing this). A few minutes later I asked Mackenzie Bill's name. She said "Daddy" and I asked what his other name was (to which she usually replies - Bill) and her response was "Honey". [Yesterday Mackenzie said that Cameron's name was "Camilicous" which we call her often]
Example 2: Cameron finished her first 8 oz bottle today. We had offered her 8 ounces before but she never finished them so it was a bit monumental. At the time Mackenzie was in potty training mode and therefore naked. Just before I fed Cam, Mac asked if she could use the step stool so after the momumental 8 oz bottle I walked over to a very wet Mackenzie. I said to her "Mackenzie did you pee" to which she replied "Guys I don't pee" and she was right the wetness was just from playing in the sink.
Example 3: Prompted by Jacob's use of the jumper we dusted off the baby einstein for Cameron today. She sat in it for the first time and although her feet would hit the floor - they were just a little shy as she doesn't extend them the whole way. We decided it would still be good for her to use but just not to leave her in for long. As Cam was sitting in the exersaucer Mackenzie brought over two rings piled on top of each other to Cameron. And said "Here Cam, Sandwich"
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
AZ
Mac & Cam -
This week I am traveling for work, the longest trip away since Cameron was born. Today was actually a low key, nice day. I had an early morning wake-up call but other than that I have been working from the hotel and even tooka long walk which in addition to reminding me how awful the New England weather really is made me miss you girls even more.
I saw so many kids on my walk today and each of them made me think about you - the stages we have already passed, the stages we are in now, the stages that are about to come. In addition to the people there were also some adorable kid shops with so many things that I almost bought but I think $45 for a child's T-shirt is crazy even when you are feeling homesick for your girls!
You are both on my mind always - and frankly it leaves me conflicted on a daily basis. I hope one day you tell me in words or action that you are proud of my choices including my choice to work (it seems strange to admit that I need you to be proud of me in much the same way that you will crave that same response from me) but it's hard to know now if you will really feel that way. I want you to know through my actions that you can do anything and that having independence including a sense of pride in your work (whatever the job) but also a feeling of financial independence is critical for everyone and especially women.
I know you (Mackenzie) ask for me when I am gone and we talk on the phone but does she worry for a second that I won't come back? I hope not but I cannot be sure - as she still asks for GiGi (who passed away in December) about once a week. Every time she asks it is sad and we talk about the fact that GiGi is in heaven and we will not see her for a long time. I also add that it is ok to miss her and to talk about her (which I know is over your head - and my head too) but I want to find the best words not only for today but words that I can use for days and months and years to come. But perhaps even more sad that her asking for GiGi is knowing that one day she will stop asking and never ask again.
OK Back to reality...Tonight on the phone you asked "Mommy, you coming?". I replied that I was in AZ and asked if she remembered it from the map (which I know she didn't) as I was trying to create a diversion for both of us. Then I did my usual "Mackenzie can you give Cameron a kiss from Mommy" and "Cameron can you give Mackenzie a kiss from Mommy". Guess those kisses from each other will need to last for a few more days but I cannot remember craving a weekend more than this weekend!
XO
Mom
This week I am traveling for work, the longest trip away since Cameron was born. Today was actually a low key, nice day. I had an early morning wake-up call but other than that I have been working from the hotel and even tooka long walk which in addition to reminding me how awful the New England weather really is made me miss you girls even more.
I saw so many kids on my walk today and each of them made me think about you - the stages we have already passed, the stages we are in now, the stages that are about to come. In addition to the people there were also some adorable kid shops with so many things that I almost bought but I think $45 for a child's T-shirt is crazy even when you are feeling homesick for your girls!
You are both on my mind always - and frankly it leaves me conflicted on a daily basis. I hope one day you tell me in words or action that you are proud of my choices including my choice to work (it seems strange to admit that I need you to be proud of me in much the same way that you will crave that same response from me) but it's hard to know now if you will really feel that way. I want you to know through my actions that you can do anything and that having independence including a sense of pride in your work (whatever the job) but also a feeling of financial independence is critical for everyone and especially women.
I know you (Mackenzie) ask for me when I am gone and we talk on the phone but does she worry for a second that I won't come back? I hope not but I cannot be sure - as she still asks for GiGi (who passed away in December) about once a week. Every time she asks it is sad and we talk about the fact that GiGi is in heaven and we will not see her for a long time. I also add that it is ok to miss her and to talk about her (which I know is over your head - and my head too) but I want to find the best words not only for today but words that I can use for days and months and years to come. But perhaps even more sad that her asking for GiGi is knowing that one day she will stop asking and never ask again.
OK Back to reality...Tonight on the phone you asked "Mommy, you coming?". I replied that I was in AZ and asked if she remembered it from the map (which I know she didn't) as I was trying to create a diversion for both of us. Then I did my usual "Mackenzie can you give Cameron a kiss from Mommy" and "Cameron can you give Mackenzie a kiss from Mommy". Guess those kisses from each other will need to last for a few more days but I cannot remember craving a weekend more than this weekend!
XO
Mom
Monday, March 3, 2008
Hey, that bottle's in my way...
I fed Cameron, as I rarely do, at the dinner table. Usually Cam is sleeping from our ride back from Changing Seasons so we let her rest while we eat and then we have play time together with both the girls. Today she didn't want to snooze on the way home so she sat in the highchair (which was very comical as it is so big for her) for a little bit and then I decided to feed her while Mackenzie ate. For Cameron the meal was a battle of hunger vs. curiousity. She wanted to eat, no she wanted to see her sister, the bottle tasted good but Mackenzie was there doing funny things and craving Cameron's attention. With every shurg and movement of her head and chin and hand she was saying - Hey Mom, this bottle is in my way. After 1/2 of it we decided she would wait until after dinner to enjoy her snack which worked much better.
As for Mackenzie tonight she used a red cup without a top and drank about 4 ounces from it without any help and only spilling a few drops. She does really good but when she gets excited she almost forgets what she is doing from the time she puts the cup to her mouth to the time the liquid gets to her mouth - - heck put me in front of General Hospital and I can get sidetracked just as quickly.
Cameron enjoys this toy you sit under and she can kick at it to play music. Tonight Mackenzie asked me to put her under the toy in the same fashion - so I moved Cameron and did just that. But she didn't want me to move Cameron, she motioned to the blanket and said "Cameron here". She wanted to lie next to her and have them both kick at the toy. It was very sweet. If Mackenzie's tenderness toward Cameron is any indication as to how she will be as an adult or as a mother one day I have definately done the world a favor by giving birth to her.
Last note of the day. Folks tell me Mackenzie is smart on a daily basis. I know she is smart but I chalk most of it up the fact that she is a pleaser (most days) and therefore likes the attention of learning colors and numbers and counting and singing and all of that. They have told me at school that she is the "smartest" one in her class and her class is full of kids that will be 3 in a few months and she will be 2 this month. But tonight she actually showed me that she knew the following letters M (for mackenzie), C (for Cameron), J (for Jacob), T (for Teri), D (for Daddy), P (for Papa), N (for Nana), K (for Katy), B (for Bella), H (for Hayley), O (just O), and Q (just Q). Sure we had been talking about letters and I decided to do the word association with people as I thought that would be more meaningful to her but it seems overnight we went from knowing 2 letters to 1/2 of the ABCs. You go girl!!
As for Mackenzie tonight she used a red cup without a top and drank about 4 ounces from it without any help and only spilling a few drops. She does really good but when she gets excited she almost forgets what she is doing from the time she puts the cup to her mouth to the time the liquid gets to her mouth - - heck put me in front of General Hospital and I can get sidetracked just as quickly.
Cameron enjoys this toy you sit under and she can kick at it to play music. Tonight Mackenzie asked me to put her under the toy in the same fashion - so I moved Cameron and did just that. But she didn't want me to move Cameron, she motioned to the blanket and said "Cameron here". She wanted to lie next to her and have them both kick at the toy. It was very sweet. If Mackenzie's tenderness toward Cameron is any indication as to how she will be as an adult or as a mother one day I have definately done the world a favor by giving birth to her.
Last note of the day. Folks tell me Mackenzie is smart on a daily basis. I know she is smart but I chalk most of it up the fact that she is a pleaser (most days) and therefore likes the attention of learning colors and numbers and counting and singing and all of that. They have told me at school that she is the "smartest" one in her class and her class is full of kids that will be 3 in a few months and she will be 2 this month. But tonight she actually showed me that she knew the following letters M (for mackenzie), C (for Cameron), J (for Jacob), T (for Teri), D (for Daddy), P (for Papa), N (for Nana), K (for Katy), B (for Bella), H (for Hayley), O (just O), and Q (just Q). Sure we had been talking about letters and I decided to do the word association with people as I thought that would be more meaningful to her but it seems overnight we went from knowing 2 letters to 1/2 of the ABCs. You go girl!!
Mac 3/3/08
In the tub this morning Mac just started pounding her hands on the tub bottom then one clap then push one hand forward with a conclusion of "ten little indian children". It was the cutest thing ever because I know the song she was singing - although not perfectly - and she had so much of it accurate it was CRAZY for a 23 month old.
I also tripped a bit while I was getting her organized and dressed this morning. To which she commented "Mommy, be careful. OK?" Wonder who she is mimicing - ME.
God I just love them to pieces!
I also tripped a bit while I was getting her organized and dressed this morning. To which she commented "Mommy, be careful. OK?" Wonder who she is mimicing - ME.
God I just love them to pieces!
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